Monday, November 22, 2010


Now is the time for everyone to be around their loved ones and eat and eat and eat and eat! So, some ways to be safe about this matter is, make sure you're not over stuffing yourself. Eat enough so that you're not hungry, but don't eat to eat. Make sure you get what you want on your plate and not just grab everything just to have it. Slow down!!! Don't eat like crazy and keep getting up for more, don't be the first to get seconds if you do go for seconds. When you eat slow, you feel full with less food because your body realizes that you're eating and before you go up for more food, you already feel full. Make sure to not drink too much soda, juice, alcohol. Water helps everything go down easier and digest easier. Instead of socializing around food, socialize around activities. Instead of staying in the kitchen and hanging out with family and friends around the dinner table with food next to you, go to the living room and play some board games, put the food away so that you don't have that excuse of running to the kitchen for some quick snacks.

I think this post will help me more than anyone else! :D

Wednesday, November 3, 2010

My Realization

I have realized after watching a thing on youtube, that the world will come to being all fat/overweight people. Right now the US is 2/3 overweight, something that everyone should be really worried about. Is it because of the food the economy is providing? Is it because of the choices we make? Who is at fault? How can we say it is those who are overweight's fault when we don't know their situation? There a so many people with eating disorders, so many people with weight problems, whether being skinny or overweight, no one in particular is at fault.

The thing that I realized with the fact that everyone may soon be overweight, is that fashion designers have no choice but to make clothing for the majority, which is fat people, overweight people, plus size (whatever you want to call it) in order to stay in business.

Is it that fashion designers are welcoming the plus size or is it just because they need to make money?

Sunday, October 3, 2010

Lane Bryant

So at our local mall we have a Lane Bryant store, it's been there for at least a year and a half, I've only been there once to check out what the prices are and the style and another time for a friend. I never looked at anything other than the price of the clothes, the one time I went in there I got a coat that the BF bought me!

So today I strolled past it and then I decided to back up and go in, so the BF and I went in and there were signs showing $6.99 sale, so I went to the clearance section, which is always in the back and there it was, wonderful and stylish clothing for $9.99 and $6.99! I was in heaven jumping around and everything. The first time I was in the store I could barely find anything that fit, it was too big, this time around I found so many things that I liked but then it didn't have my size or my color and I didn't have enough time. In the end I bought three shirts, one earring, and a necklace, spending $28!!!! That's amazing because really those shirts each are worth that much!!

This is my new favorite stores, even though I can't shop for things that aren't marked, I will for sure shop in the clearance, as I do at Old Navy!!! Today was a great day and I will be filming a haul video, so make sure to check out my channel with other videos pertaining to makeup and plus size clothing!!!

Monday, September 13, 2010

Like Someone Said

Like someone said, I don't know where that person got it from and I'm sure this is known to many of you out there, but they (people) don't have to accept you, but they can not deny you! Live by that and you will be fine. I walk around trying to suck in my fat and I wonder, why am I doing it? It's making my life more difficult, they see me and know that I'm fat, so why do I need to make myself uncomfortable and squeeze it in when it doesn't work anyways? Be proud ladies and gentlemen, who cares if your jelly rolls jiggle just a little, as long as it's not sticking (literally) out there and saying hi.

They do not have to accept you for who you are and what you are, but that does not mean that they can deny who you are and what you are, because you are who you are (does that make sense?).

Friday, September 10, 2010

My Findings

I find that big people are all over the world. Just because people don't like us doesn't make us disappear, and just because we are big does not mean that everyone is looking at us because WE'RE BIG! I always think that! I always think that when I'm going up the steps someone's staring at my big booty, I always think that when I'm walking on the sidewalk people driving by will be looking at me because I'm big, I always think that every time I eat people will look at me because they think that I'm eating too much. SERIOUSLY girl, GET OVER YOURSELF! lol No,this is what I think, and it may be suprising, but a LOT of big beings think this way. TRUST ME, I know!

But you know what? Not everyone is looking at you because you are big, they may be looking at you because you got something in your teeth or you got a wedgey. NAWWW, I'm just playing. They may be looking at you because you got a nice shirt on, or they like your big booty, or they wish they could be you! So think it that way, and shake that big booty of yours, so they can be jealous and wish that they could be P-H-A-T's (Pretty Hot And Thick) too!

Tuesday, August 24, 2010

A Big Girl's Got to Eat

I big girl gots to eat, not just big girls, all girls, all humans, everyone, and everything does! So why is it such a problem when you see big girls eat? We got to feed ourselves, and sometimes it's more than often, but who has to deal with it? We do, so leave us alone! You don't make the situation any better.

Girls, no matter how big or small you are, you have to eat! That's just a no brainer! If you don't eat, you'll starve to death and no one wants that to happen.

Monday, August 16, 2010

Marc Jacobs

So I know he's important and is a designer and makes a lot of money, but on DVD it talks about him launching a line for plus size women!! You know what that means ladies? He'll need models, and the models now are already pretty much booked, so that will give other plus size women a chance to model!! :D Makes me happy, even though I not doing anything to make me a model besides hoping for it to fall in my lap, it makes me very happy! I would love to be a model, it'll be hard work but I think looking pretty all day is worth it, plus you help other women just like you! Oh how nice it would be.....

Friday, August 13, 2010


I didn't know what the heck BBW stood for, it stands for BIG BEAUTIFUL WOMEN!!! WOOT WOOT! :D I was searching for other plus size women on youtube and I found people talking about BBW and how they should own their big booties and bodies, and it made me feel so loved, lol!! It made me smile! Which is good, we should praise ourselves, watch a lot of those videos, and go up to people looking at us and say, people love this so get over it, HAHAHAHA!

Thursday, August 12, 2010

Wanting To Do More

I want to do something MORE! I want to tell other big women that it's ok to be big! Don't exercise thinking you want to lose all that off, exercise thinking it will help your health! Do it because you want to, not because YOU HAVE TO! Love yourself, if you don't, no one will because they see that you don't love yourself. Only after you accept yourself, can you ACCEPT OTHERS!!! This is a message for all women, not only big women have trouble dealing with their weight, all women do! Be who you are, not what you want to be.

Do more in your life, it's your life, LIVE IT! Only you can change yourself, if you can't change your weight, change your ATTITUDE! Stop being a complainer and do something about it.

I hope no one gets mad/upset about this, but this is truly how I feel!

Wednesday, July 21, 2010

Plus Size Clothes

I don't get why they make nice and trendy plus size clothing so expensive!!! I hate that, first of all we are big already, second of all you gots to make everything so expensive that we can't buy it. When it's nice and too expensive, I don't buy it! I'm sure that's how it is for a lot of women.

I've realized that (being big all my life) I was always wearing clothes for the wrong age, it was always for older people. When I was in grade school I wore clothe for teenagers, when I was a teenager I wore clothes for adults, and now that I am an adult, I'm wearing adult clothing, but at times I feel like I'm shopping in the granny section just to get the sizes that fit. Have you ever had that problem? I can't find clothes for big women anywhere, and the ones that I'm supposed to be wearing too... It's sad that we have to go through being big, and not even having the resources for trendy clothes. So depressing, errrrrrrr.

Thursday, July 1, 2010

Modeling Opportunity

So I was on the Daily Venus Diva website looking at stuff, and there's a conference in September!!! I'm excited, doubt that I can go, it's probably way expensive, but they need volunteer models, so I'm thinking that the volunteer models don't have to pay for anything, but don't get paid themselves, which is fine with me. There will be a ton of people, so to be modeling and just have a bunch of plus size professionals looking at you is a great opportunity!!! But, I can't even walk like a model, so as of right now until later this month, I'm gonna train myself to walk like a model. I've been reading about how to walk like a model already, but who knows when I have time to practice. I will have to strap on some heels again, haven't worn heels in a while, but getting into that habit isn't such a bad thing. I want to be able to walk in killer heels, because they just make an outfit so much better and your attitude (if that makes sense to you guys)!

Goal: walk like a model

Wednesday, June 30, 2010


So the only store open when I get off is Walmart, so I go there.. Yes I know it's not the best store, it does have everything though. Well yesterday I went to go buy some capri pants for the weekend since I'm going to go watch the BF play flag football and it's gonna be so hot! So I went with my little sister and brother, and I tried on five different pairs, I only came out with two that I liked. They are the same size, same fit, same brand, but different color. I love them though, makes my stomach slim and my butt big, lol!! That's what the BF likes!! Anyways, I felt fat, of course I did, I was like, how can these other pants not fit? OMG!!! So, I said to myself, "Oh well, that means I get to save money, I wont have to buy more pants then because they don't fit!" Now that's thinking positive!!! See it's all working, me thinking positive, I have been super successful lately and I'm so proud!!! If the BF were to be reading my blogs he would be too!! :D

Monday, June 28, 2010


All women want to change things about themselves, two being a big factor, first is there body figure and second is their attitude/behavior (about themselves or in general). This is true to a lot of women, not all, because I don't know all women, but anyways, it's true for me.

I want to change my figure, OF COURSE I do, what would I change? HMMMM, my everything, except my eyes and lips... I want everything smaller and stretchmarks gone.. but of course it's not gonna happen.. what do I need to change about my behavior? A lot, I'm impatient, short tempered, mean, and everything else girls are.. But about myself, I can be self-conscious a LOT and depressing, and sad and all that, I can sometimes put myself down, so it's depressing and depressing to tell the whole world.

BUT since changing your body means exercise and better eating habits, I've tried both and it just takes too much work, I know I know, I'm complaing and LAZY to many of you, but I have a better idea, because living my life and hating the skin that I'm walking in is just too DEPRESSING. I want to be able to adapt and love my body and my figure. The body and curves that my parents gave to me should be accepted by me and others, if it's not accepted by others, why should I bash it too? I live in it, it's not gonna change if I don't do anything to it, and I haven't done much, so love it, live it and take pride in it. I'm learning to adapt/change my attitude because I want to accept myself the way that I am (full figured and some). The BF accepts me, why don't I? It's probably because all my life I've been put down for being bigger than others, now that I see that I am bigger than others, I'm so used to being put down and getting that kind of feedback that I put myself down. Sad, huh? True to many women and men..

So I've decided instead of changing my body, I'm going to change my attitude. I need to love myself in order to be with the BF because if you don't love yourself, you can't love someone else. I love the BF very much, but it's difficult when I don't have confidence in myself. Sure I have some confidence, but when I feel nasty and icky, that's how I feel and I even seem depressing, I know he tries to help me not feel that way, but it's not about him or it's not him or anything to do with him, it's all me, THAT is why I have to change my attitude. I'm doing good so far, I look in the mirror and tell myself, yeah you are beautiful AND big, instead of saying you are beautiful BUT big.. I feel that being big adds to me and who I am. I stand for a lot of things, and being a plus size chick, it just adds to what I stand for. I'm looking at myself everyday and not saying "ewww you look nasty and fat, I hate my life, I hate being fat, I wish I was skinny". DEPRESSING, I'm 21, and I have been living and thinking and believing this all my life, I have my whole life ahead of me and I'm going to take a hold of it and make sure I don't think this way. Life is too short to be depressed, too short to live with social statuses, and too short to be wasted.

So with my new life and new attitude, I will be happy and positive. This will open up so many doors and so many more opportunities, I will be so up-beat and positive that I will be able to take chances and not be so scared and afraid because of the way others may think of me and my body. I will take those chances whether they like me or not!

Friday, June 25, 2010


Looking at myself in the mirror before I showered, I was examining my hips! I was amazed at how fast they grew out without me even knowing. I was saddened because I hate the fact that they are growing, bigger hips mean new pants, which isn't a good thing, I don't want to HAVE to spend money on pants... I also saw the nasty stretchmarks that are lingering all over, the ones that I have never seen before... I have come to realize that I have been far to worried about other things than my body. I'm overweight, most likely unhealthy, but how would I know? I can't afford to go in for a check up. Exercising even once a week is too much, I hate to have to think about it and having to push myself to go there. I want to be self-motivated there and be able to do it without forcing myself. I want to want to do it and I want to have fun doing it. I used to exercise every few times a week, now it's like I don't have time because of my two jobs and then on the weekends I want to go out instead of spend time working out. I guess that's really no excuse, it's probably and is because I am too lazy and I feel disgusting when I work out, I don't ever want anyone to be around when I'm working out because I feel grouse and look it too! See what one little thing can do to me? DEPRESSION I tell ya.

Thursday, June 24, 2010

Plus Size Modeling

I have been thinking about plus size modeling for a week now, not too long, but overtime too just not as serious as I am now. I searched several places for an opportunity and there are several, BUTT (and it's a big butt too) I feel like I don't have the time or the money. All the places whether it's training to be or the shows are in bigger cities, sure I'm not too far from a couple but still, for me to have to haul myself and my luggage and my car somewhere far to do all that good stuff is such a hassle. If I do want to do/go I will have to compensate some money and time, which I don't have..... So, I should train myself to walk the model walk and look/feel like one, THEN we will see what I decide to do.

I'm also trying to show myself on different pages to get known and noticed, not that there's anything to notice about me, but just so people connect the name and the face together. lol, sounds so funny when you have to write it down. I hope that everything helps me in the long run and I'm sure it will if I put everything in good use and be wise about everything. Am I wise? No, but I'll try for my future!

Wednesday, June 23, 2010

Waking Up and Feeling Guilty

This morning I woke up and I was feeling so tired and lazy, it was kind of difficult to get out of bed. I was like, Oh My Gosh, I feel super guilty about eating and then sleeping right away last night, but what can I do when I have two jobs, get home and eat a quick dinner. It's already time to go to bed when I'm done with my dinner and I don't want to stay up for it to digest because it takes forever and I don't have forever to stay up when I have to wake up early to head off to work (whew, that was a mouthful). So I felt the blubber weighing me down this morning, maybe I should starve every night when I get home from working all day, but I hear that will make me gain even more weight. It's silly how you starve and you gain weight, you eat and you gain weight, so no matter what you do, you will still GAIN WEIGHT. So, I say, eat because then you don't have the pain of being hungry and you can eat. :D