Sunday, January 15, 2012

Inner Beauty

Tonight I went to the bars with some family and friends. It was a chaotic night, lots of drunk people, arguing, upset people, and laughter. I found myself looking at women and thinking, wow she dances really strange and that chick thinks she's really good at dancing, that one looks really nice! I just kept going on and on in my head about other people and then I looked at the people I was with and realized the same thing. They dance funny, they look nice, they think they're good at dancing too. I have always thought that about myself, but what I didn't realize that I realized today or tonight, is that no matter who you are and what you look like, you will feel good, sexy, and beautiful on the dance floor. You feel good about yourself, you think everyone is watching you because you're good looking and because they're interested. Whether this is true or not is not the case, what we feel inside is shown on the outside. People may look at us (like I looked at others) and think that person is crazy or whatever, but it doesn't always phase us. We still feel what we feel.

I then realized that no matter how I look on the dance floor, as long as I took time to get dressed and put on makeup, I was going to feel good, sexy, and like I have the world in my hands, whether I am fat or not. Skinny women feel that same way and looking around and from my own experience so do the plus size women, so did the cute lady in the wheelchair.

It's all about inner beauty, how you feel, what makes you feel this way. It's the surroundings of music playing in the background, your outfit, the makeup you took time into putting on, the perfume you chose, the lipstick you're wearing, each curl in your hair. You feel this wheather others think it to be true or not, so I'm wondering, if I wasn't a plus size girl, would it really matter? I would still feel inner beauty, I would still dance as crazy weird as I do now and feel as wonderful on the dance floor as I do now, so what's the difference if I was big or not?

My health you say? Who said I wasn't healthy being plus size?

Sunday, January 8, 2012

Being Good

I have been good at working out for the past week. Making sure I work out at least half an hour and if I'm too sore to do it one day, I can skip. Now I'm not saying skipping is good, but for a beginner (someone who hasn't worked out in a very long time) it's a good thing to keep slow and pace yourself. I don't want to overwork my muscles and I don't want to crash. I'm still taking classes and working so I have to make sure I'm up for that as well. I don't want to be too sore to not be able to carry heavy stuff or go up and down the stairs at my work place.

Keeping it consistent helps too. Working everyday for half an hour is good, until I can do more than I will boost it up to an hour and more difficult exercises.

Last week I did pushups, full on pushups and I was so happy! Haven't done full on pushups in forever!! Thanks to the bf for helping me and pushing me to do it. I learned in yoga that it's not all about sweating, it's more about the exercise.

Another thing that I have been following is that I should not starve myself, I can eat whatever I want but limit myself to portions. So I can eat whatever I want but in smaller portions that what I have been doing. This works! Whenever I crave something and I'm like, no I am on a diet and need exercising, I just think to myself, don't cut yourself out of the things you want to eat, just limit the portion!

It does really help!!

Let's keep being motivated!! I feel like this year I will accomplish a lot of things!! :D

Tuesday, January 3, 2012

My Same New Year's Resolution BUT Better

Every year, just about, I have been putting this on my new year's resolution list: to lose weight.

I have failed every time.

But this year I have come up with a plan, along with the bf, that I will lose 70 lbs. by the end of the year. It doesn't matter how I do it, but I have to do it.

Now this is actually only one of the few things on my list.

I wanted to be more realistic, and reading and looking at that number you may say that it isn't realistic, but for me I see that it is.

In the past I have always wanted to lose weight and haven't been doing the right thing by specifying how much. I always say lose weight, but how much is actually losing weight, what if I just lost a pound? Would that be fulfilling my new year's resolution?

This year I have gotten to be more specific in specifying how much. This'll help me determine how to go about doing so.

The bf has a goal of losing weight as well, so we have come up with a plan that we will work-out together and work-out twice a day, once in the morning and once at night!

Let's hope we both go through with it!!!

We really need to stay healthy if we want children in our future!! :D