Sunday, December 11, 2011

You Should Apply To Be A Plus Size Model

This past weekend I went home for an early X-mas party with my humungous family and for the party I was wearing a skirt from Forever21, black tights to match my skirt, and a zebra printed shirt from Wal-mart. My sister told me that I looked gorgeous in the fake lashes and the zebra printed shirt. She also said that I always tend to look good and that I should apply to be a plus size model! It made me happy of course and think that maybe I should keep pursuing it. It's not going to happen on the first try, I'll have to keep at it and keep doing what I can do better myself and to get out there. I think that once school is over, I can pursue that more. I only have a semester left!

I'm really happy that other people think that I should be a plus size model other than me. It would be such an amazing opportunity for me! I definitely need to shed off some weight so that I am more fit. I don't need to lose a dramatic amount of weight, just enough so that I can be fit and not flabby!

I hope that I can at least accomplish that, and then maybe my chances of being considered will be higher!

Don't give up! Keep trying!

Sunday, November 6, 2011

Jealous of Losing Weight

I am so jealous of others losing weight. I know they deserve it because they work out and have been doing it for a long time in order to lose weight, but I am SO JEALOUS. I want to tone down and look decent, I feel like flab is just flowing. EWWW. That was too descriptive.

Anyway, a few of my friends that I haven't seen in a long time have gotten so skinny and looking at them they look so good!!! Like seriously? I need to do what they are doing.

So the BF and I have been gaining weight together and we just promised each other that no matter how busy we will be, we have to work out 3 times a week. If we can't do it on the weekdays, we will do it on the weekends!


I guess jealousy can motivate me too, if nothing else will.

Monday, October 31, 2011

Stretch Mark Devastation

When a person sees stretch marks on their body, it is so devastating.

Lately I have been so busy that I forget to go to the gym or exercise. Since I have been back in the states I have only gained weight. So sad and disappointed in myself.

I walked a lot in NZ, now I drive and have no time to go walking, plus no where to go to walk. I guess those are just excuses because I usually am lazy anyway.

But I did want to exercise and do all those good things, I have seen so many people lose weight lately, it has inspired me to. But yet I don't do anything.

Do you ever feel that way? See people and be motivated but just not motivated ENOUGH?

When will it be my day to motivate myself or be motivated enough to lose some of this weight?

Of course I am labeling myself as a plus size, but it doesn't mean I can't be plus size and healthy, it doesn't mean I can't lose weight and still be plus size! I want to keep some of my figure, but I definitely want to and need to shape up!

The world will laugh and I will shed tears.

These stretch marks are such a devastation.

Tuesday, September 20, 2011

OOTD Plus Size Style

Hi Ladies!!!!

OOTD- Outfit Of The Day

So on my youtube channel, I have been doing some here and there blurbs about being plus size and such, and that wasn't what I intentionally wanted to talk about, but I'm finding it more and more helpful for my viewers! I also stated in a few videos that I wouldn't be doing any OOTD videos, but seeing that a few of my viewers ask for it and that when I searched, there weren't many, I figured it would be helpful.

That way I can get videos out there more and it would be something different for me and my viewers. I am horrible at coming up with videos, since my lighting is always horrible and I never have time to sit down and do videos. It's great for all of us!!!

I hope that the gals that tune into my outfits don't hate it too much, lol. I tend to be boring and wear casual more than anything, but even casual can look nice plus size style!!!

Learn to live in your body and love your body!!!

I'll link my channel below if you haven't already been!!! :D

Saturday, May 7, 2011

Big Beings Have It More Difficult

I think that just because we are bigger than others people give us less of a chance. I hate that so much. And at the same time, I am guilty of it too.

I feel like you have to prove yourself in order to be noticed or even given a chance. And by chance I mean for anything in general. You have to put more effort, you have to make sure that you do things right, make sure you're not on their bad side.

Seriously? Just because someone is skinny does it automatically put them in a higher standard that someone who's slightly bigger or bigger in general???

Society is horrible. It's a contradiction, we hate labels but we label ourselves.

I think that because you are bigger you have to try harder at life, and do more in life to succeed. It's how things are, and yes we have to get used to it and try our best, but it gets tiring (at least to me).

Thursday, April 21, 2011

No One Wants to Travel With a Fattie

I have come to realize that no one wants to travel with a fattie (me). I'm slow, I can't do everything they do, I'm just plane no good. And it's really sad. But I don't want to go hiking up a mountain and not talk and just walk up that huge hill, I want to go shopping and hang out and laugh and talk! I want to site see, not climb a frick'n mountain.

No one wants to travel with a fattie, but I don't care! I have made it this far traveling by myself, why should I need to travel with someone?

If you really knew me, you would know that I'm so heartbroken that I don't have one close friend here. Not one that I can really hang out with and tell them everything, the one that I thought I had, doesn't deserve my friendship. I hope one day she reads this, and knows exactly what I'm talking about.

Anyways, for spring break I have decided that I will just relax, and if something spontaneous comes up I will leap at that chance! We will see what happens!!

God is my way, and whatever way he leads me, I will take, even if it means I will shed a million tears before I reach it!

Monday, March 28, 2011

Inspired to Aspire

So, I have been obsessed with blogs lately, as I have tweeted! I am so into the different looks that these wonderful women have to share! I am not that creative and bold as they are, but I think that I have something to offer.

Now my style isn't really anything, and I think the clothes wears me more than I wear the clothes. Of course I want to change that, and what better way to do that than blog about what I'm wearing and such! So, I hope to aspire other gals like I have been towards other blogs (lol I almost lost myself saying that).

This summer I will be back at home, and hoping to get an internship, that calls for dressing up somewhat most of the time. I have already offered the bf the position to be my photographer because he wants the experience and thinks it would be great for his job in the future! So it all works out, I just need clothes! lol

I hope that I can aspire others! I like what I like, and it's not really a certain style, I guess there isn't a label to my clothing, it's just whatever.

When it happens, I hope you all enjoy!

Sunday, March 27, 2011

New Zealand Fashion for the Plus Size

Ok, so I've been here for over a month, and I still can't find any stores that are catered towards plus size women that are AFFORDABLE! I found it so difficult to find clothes that would fit me in K-mart, or was it the fact that the sizes were all different and I didn't know what size I was looking for?

I wish there were websites to just tell me where I can go shop for clothes for my big booty-licious body, LOL! But seriously, I'm getting a little tired of hunting for places, I just want to be able to shop for clothes I like, instead of having to find stores to shop....

I have been inspired to take more pictures and blog more about outfits and so on! It'll be good practice for my style/fashion (not that I really have a specific fashion/style) I just wear whatever I like! Some how it works!

Friday, February 11, 2011

Youtube Videos

I've been doing a few videos here and there about plus size and all, and a lot of people watch them. I have decided that I will do more because I find that those are one of the most viewed, so that would be helpful right? I want to help others, so I will do more videos geared towards that subject. I'm really excited!

I have just recently posted up a video about plus size websites that I love and are for socializing, community support, and entertainment, check it out at the link below!!!

Tuesday, January 11, 2011

Modeling Obsession Again

OMG OMG OMG. I keep finding these great opportunities for modeling. Can I enter, absolutely!! And so can you, if you're reading this. It's amazing what a great opportunity this is, and since I don't see many Asian plus size models, this would be GREAT!!!!

If I make it, I would be so excited and happy! It would help me money wise and career wise and all that great stuff. Of course I will have to practice my walk again, lol. Do I even have a walk???? (no) but doesn't mean I can't make one, start walking like a model.

I just hope it works with my busy life. I will have to make sure that it all works with school and all, I'm not really sure why I'm even all worked up about this because I doubt I will be chosen, some hottie will be chosen, not me (there I go again, doubting myself). I'm sure someone who is really talented and really working hard on it will get it because I just started looking into this, and others may have been trying for years.. I don't want to take that from them. Who knows what will happen, I may or may not apply.